The seeds within

We are both human and Divine. We are all spiritual beings having a physical experience. Part of our mission here is to learn how to integrate the two parts of our nature in order to fulfill our life purpose as a soul. These are things that most of us on a spiritual path know and embrace as truth. We usually spend our days checking our sometimes-fearful ego, the mortal human part that is sometimes bent on disregarding the spiritual side of life, focusing on personal self-gratification, and finding drama or negativity in just about everything. We also, of course, have our soul, our immortal part, that sees beauty blessings, and opportunities to grow and learn in everything, even the things most of us would describe as dark nights of the soul, difficulties, or adversities. It is keenly aware that everything that happens to us during an incarnation is for the benefit of our soul’s evolution. It can be a constant struggle trying to stay in the middle instead of compartmentalizing our lives into, “my spiritual life” and “my physical life.”

I was raised in a home where our faith, Catholicism, was at the heart of our daily lives every moment of every day. My seven siblings and I knew that we had a personal responsibility to follow the ten commandments of Christian theology. We went to mass every single day, not just on Sundays. We said the rosary every night on our knees in front of a statue of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. We also went to Catholic school, so our days were filled with spirit and what it means to live a life of sanctity and truth. We had our temptations, of course, to listen to the snarky voice of our ego who urged us sometimes to break the rules and cross over to the “Dark side.”

I can’t speak for my seven siblings, but for me, whenever I had one of those moments to do or say something that was beyond the parameters of love and kindness, I knew that even if no one ever found out, Jesus was always around us. He would know, and I didn’t want to let Him down. However, to be clear, I certainly wasn’t a saint by any means. The temptations sometimes won out and I wasn’t the person of piety and Divine love that I wanted to be. Yet, I always had that still small, voice of my soul within me that continually forgave me and urged me to forgive myself, be repentant and move on, vowing to do better and be better.

I was fortunate to have an upbringing that taught me the importance of living a life directed by the love and light of our Creator, to whom we are all connected. As I grew into adulthood and went through much adversity, chaos, and pain, I had my faith to hold me up and give me hope. I had my team of light to whisper softly to my frightened self, urging me to never ever give up, pray for assistance, and trust in my soul’s wisdom. I must admit there were m ,/times when I felt abandoned by God, wept with self-pity and asked Him why he was allowing such atrocities to occur in my life when I always tried to be a good person. During those times, I decided that perhaps he wanted me to figure things out by myself without His help. I tried but quickly learned that was far from the truth. I needed Him to help me in all aspects of my life.

Through God’s guidance and that of my spiritual team, I began to find my answers to life’s difficult questions at the end of my pen. Throughout those trying times, I always journaled because that was my solace and the doorway to my authentic self. As I wrote, tears of anguish and uncertainty stained the pages of my sacred journals, one after the other. Yet, through this fruitful process, I gained the guidance and strength that I needed to endure and overcome my struggles. The dedication to my writing took me to a palace within me, where I discovered many of the spiritual truths I was looking for. Of course, I did seek out books and wise spiritual teachers who also touched the seeds of wisdom that were already lying dormant within me. Those seeds of enlightenment were just waiting for the right moment and the perfect conditions for them to begin to grow and blossom. Often those perfect moments, for me, was when I was on my knees weeping in despair, but it’s not the same for everyone. We can also grow as well, from joy, gratitude and a pious intention to truly understand the esoteric truths of our mortal and immortal existence.

Many of us didn’t grow up with any religion at all. Some grew up with a childhood filled with religious dogma and doctrine that didn’t match the days in between the requirement of attending a weekly service. In other words, we weren’t taught to practice what we preach or were raised by parents who said, “Do as I say, not as I do.” Yet, somewhere in the confusion and absence of spiritual direction was still a voice within that called to us through the silence, and in our dreams. Those loving voices were that of soul and our team of light who would never give up trying to break through the barriers of unconsciousness and pour forth the cool waters of conscious awareness and spiritual awakening. Religion, though helpful for some, is definitely not necessary to help us evolve as a soul. In fact, it can sometimes be a detriment as manmade or ego-driven dogma and doctrine can be in opposition to the real truth.

Before embarking on this human journey, we were guided by our soul and our team of light to choose our parents, siblings, spouses, and friends who would share our earthly journey. We did so because we knew that having those specific souls in our lives would help us to remember an important truth, that we, at our very core, are immortal beings of Divine Love and infinite light. We are powerful beyond comprehension, and as growing souls we needed to learn how to use that power responsibly and in the name of love. Even those people who may have been abusive, cruel or neglectful were perfect catalysts to push us deep within to the temple of our soul’s light. There, in that sacred space, we discovered the precious seeds of wisdom just waiting for the right moment to grow and blossom, revealing the hidden truths that we were consciously or unconsciously looking for. Our experiences, and where we were on the path of our soul’s evolution would determine which seeds would grow and blossom, revealing some of God’s truths at a specific time, and which ones would not. Eventually, as we continue to grow and evolve, all the precious seeds of truth we all hold within our soul’s Divine energy will develop and reveal the entire truth, and the “raison d’etre” for everything.

The point here is this. Believing that someone else is better than we are because they seemingly behold more wisdom, truth, and enlightenment is a serious misunderstanding. It’s like seeing a garden where some flowers that have fully unfurled, revealing all of their full magnificence, and some who are still a tiny bud, not quite ready to take their place among those flowers who, before them, fully understood their purpose within the garden. Anyone who holds themselves up as the only way for us to learn the truth and find our way back to our Creator, once this lifetime is complete, is either completely misguided, or simply a hypocrite searching for ways to embolden and aggrandize his or her already out of control ego.

We were all created equal and are all equally loved by our Creator. Just as humans grow from a tiny babe to adulthood and beyond, so do our souls as they remember the truth of our Divine “beingness.” Some humans living simultaneously have souls likened to innocent newborns, curious toddlers, inquisitive children, impetuous teens, more enlightened adults, and eventually ascended masters or wise ones. We must all move through each level of consciousness in order to fully evolve. During those levels, one by one, every single seed of enlightenment within us all will open, eventually bringing us home.

This is the truth, and this is our destiny. As we move farther along on our path, one of the most gratifying of all spiritual and human experiences is to be able to reach into the hearts of those souls, a few steps behind us, and extend to them a helping hand. Sometimes it takes but a word or a sentence or even a kind gesture to stir and awaken one or more dormant God-seeds within them, urging those tiny seeds to begin their journey and spiritual purpose. That purpose is to develop and unfold the delicate petals protecting God’s blessed truths. Upon their beatific opening, they will reveal for each of us the next bit of truth for us to utilize as a steppingstone to the next level of our spiritual consciousness. No one is ever left behind, no one! That is a promise, for God loves us all. There are no exceptions, no matter what the circumstances of our present lives might be. He will never abandon any of us. Never!